February 2018 Wrap-Up: Fewer books and bigger life decisions

by - 05 March

Hello dear readers!

Contrary to what I promised myself in January, this month was a difficult one and I spent even less time on reading, blogging, Instagram and other things that usually make me happy. This alone should've been a red flag, but sometimes you only realise how bad things are when you are feeling better. I haven't been very good with sharing personal issues on here, although I think this time it's important to try.

(Also, completely unrelated, I'd like to apologise for the hideous quality of this photo, it's perfectly fine on my phone but refuses to look the same on here. Maybe tech is alive and rebellious after all.)

But first things first: In February, I finished only three books (sad), started two others, watched much less TV - at least one thing went according to plan - and listened to one audio-book. Here is the overview:


The House at Pooh CornerA. A. Milne180 pages
A Room with a ViewE. M. Forster257 pages½
When We Were Very YoungA. A. Milne100 pages


HP: The Prisoner of AzkabanJ. K. Rowlingca. 200 p.
Thinking, Fast and SlowDaniel Kahnemann ca. 50 p.slow read
The most memorable of my reads was definitely A Room with a View by E.M. Forster. Again, I would like to shout out my bookish parabatai Marie from The Bibliologist for spontaneously making me read this gem! My review is in the making (seriously, half of it is done) and I cannot wait to spill all my thoughts about this little book.

Here's a fun fact about me: The amount of Milne books you see me reading can give you a pretty decent idea of how anxious I am. To me, Winnie-the-Pooh is not just a children's book, and after seeing Goodbye Christopher Robin, it became even clearer that the stories from the Hundred-Acre-Wood can really help someone cope with difficult times. At least that's what they do for me.

And here we are at the 'life decisions' part of the post, because I turned to these books to get away from a life that felt like it was slipping out of my hands. I won't go into detail here - those could fill an entire post by themselves - but want to share the outcome of this mess of a month. Basically, due to complex circumstances, I decided to ditch my plans that had been made over the last weeks. They derived from a feeling of having no choice, and were not what I actually wanted to do with my life. I felt out of control, almost gave up on myself, and this kind of thinking plunged me into a pretty dark phase I didn't quite realise had such a hold on me until I got out of it. So, here's what I've learned:

  • if you chose the wrong path at a crossroads, going back is actually going forward
  • listen to your gut, and be brave enough to stay true to yourself
  • let yourself be inspired, but remember nothing ever happens the same way twice
  • strive for your dreams but be grateful for what you have
The most important lesson of all, though, might simply be to turn to your friends in times of trouble. I cannot express how thankful I am to those of you who helped me through this, you all know who you are. Your support is everything to me. We booksters obviously love our pages and written words, but sometimes the people in your life can help you just as much. Seriously, I tried it. 10/10 would recommend! (Did I just rate Friendship? Alright it's time to move on.)


The audio-book I listened to was the fifth instalment of the Narnia Chronicles, or to be exact the Focus on the Family Radio Theatre version of the The Silver Chair by C. S. Lewis. I still absolutely love this series and can only recommend them to anyone who loves or is interested in Narnia! The production is fantastic in a nostalgic way, and you can find all of them on the 'Tube.


With my trial month for Netflix expired, I was left with my usual selection of TV shows and mostly watched The Grand Tour and, when that was over, old episodes from Top Gear. I really love the holy trinity of presenters aka Hammond, Clarkson and May - despite knowing next to nothing about cars - and genuinely appreciate their journalism. They manage to convey information, keep things exciting, are not afraid to be openly self-aware and bring just the right amount of subjectivity into their reviews, which really inspires me. And, somehow, they too help me through anxious times, so I'm really glad to have more than a dozen seasons left to watch!


Yeah, this did not go well last month at all, considering that this monthly wrap-up directly followed... last month's wrap-up. Alright, go ahead, ring that shame bell!

So, to do better, I came up with specific dates for the next posts and hope to stick to this plan, for once. The Bullet Journal Flip Through is scheduled for Sunday, followed by my review for A Room With a View, then a little special on my new favourite TV show and, hopefully, all the other reviews I have yet to catch up on.

And now that my life is heading in what at least feels like the right direction, I'm hoping for more stability in general. Once everything has settled a little, everything else should fall back into a secure routine again.

Also, we have a book fair coming up here in Germany! So things will definitely get exciting. Am I going to see any of you there?

Thank you so much for reading, and here's to a marvellous March 

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